Since morning, I have been feeling extremely tired and exhausted. I woke up with TBH’s sound of extreme coughing, though he is doing good today. In my attempt to write happy entries this month, I did not mention that TBH was diagnosed with mild typhoid around ten days back and was advised complete bed rest. I followed the doctor’s instructions to the T and now he is alright, in fact much better, resumed work since Monday.
I know typhoid is not a big deal, but illnesses and sicknesses in general have started to impact me a great deal these days. May be it’s the hormonal changes or coming to terms with the city life, or missing family phase or simply plain growing up. Somewhere in the background the reason is also a blog I read few months back and had to stop reading forcefully, I am forgetting the link, the name so unable to post the details. In short it was a writer’s blog who had a dream like life until one routine morning her 40 something husband felt sick (headache – vomiting – nausea) and died of a heartache within a matter of few minutes. The blog covers details of that morning and her journey thereafter. She also mentioned that only a couple of days her husband got a through health check up done and the reports came out clean, which came as a shock to me.
Since last few weeks every now and then I get restless, spend sleepless nights thinking about all the action points I need to take if I am stuck in an emergency. The fact that all our friends and relatives in Delhi live at least on an hour’s drive doesn’t help my situation. Also this that I know total of zero people in our apartment aggravates the matter in my mind. I have saved all the emergency contacts, of nearby hospital, of our doctor and alike. I can’t sleep without my cellphone by my side. I have been pushing TBH to go for a full medical checkup since few days. We are only waiting for his typhoid to subside completely. His BP came slightly on the higher side twice last week, it might be because of the fever but now I think my BP is on a rise because of that.
I need to keep all the emergency medicines in my bedside table, but I am afraid to ask family in case they get extra worried or suspicious. I am actually getting paranoid thinking all the things that can go wrong. That’s why this post. I needed to take this out of my system. And I need all your help to prepare me for such situations, all the people living alone, all the couples living away from family how to keep one ready? Or how to calm my mind? What medicines/ medical tools / emergency numbers you keep handy?
I have faced emergencies in my hometown, twice. I have come out much stronger in calamities to my own surprise. My dad used to call me in case of any such situation before Mom. Once I drove him to hospital in the middle of the night managing everything when he complained of chest pain. But there it is like we know everybody, ten people can come to be by your side in 2 minutes. It’s different matter that you actually call them or not, but at least there is an assurance of your people being there. But these days I am feeling very weak and struggling to come over such thoughts. Guys help out.