My last day at mom’s place and I am rushing to pack all my stuff. Just in one and a half month Bunny’s stuff overshadowed both mine and TBH’s. Numerous gifts from all the visitors, bunny cloths, bunny blankets, bunny toys and all other baby stuff which I am doubtful I will ever use filled couple of big cartons.
Still I felt like buying some more cool stuff of my choice as till then I had not bought a single thing myself, also because as were shifting to my inlaws place which is a small town and I thought I won’t get all that I need there. And I hoarded more unnecessary stuff for future use. I made dad’s driver to stay for an extra hour and took the sister who knew this cool new baby shop. We were both excited and happy with our purchase. We spent a couple of thousands on baby bibs, one cloth diaper, one baby pajama without thinking twice, now that we have bunny at home we are going overboard with everything in our excitement.
We sat in the car to return home. At the traffic signal there was this plastic ball seller. Driver bhaiya who is himself a father of an year old baby boy asked for the price, the lady seller said fifty and he said nahi chiaye. Before the bargaining could start the signal turned green and we moved. But that small incident made me feel miserable, like that was needed, a tight slap, all the shopping happiness gone out of the window, two weeks have passed since then and I could not touch the stuff we bought. Sometimes the disparity just breaks your heart and makes you feel guilty for no apparent reason.
I feel shallow, I feel my feelings are confined to only writing them down, I need to actually do something to feel good. Online payments to Goonj and Milaap are not making me happy these days.
On other note I am thinking twice for every bunny purchase, even being the first time parents that we are full of excitement, I have decided to buy a lot of ‘preloved’ (term using for second hand stuff, got this from a baby forum I have joined and loved it) baby stuff which gets redundant just after few months. I am in for suggestions about what is actually required for babies and first time parents from the experienced mommies out there.